UGH!!!
depressed//

teacher say dun need to pass up
physics proj until she says so..
last min oso no use
at least now it's finished

had maths, science and hist quiz
scored 9 for A maths
10 for science chem
and 18.5 for hist
so am gonna get poor marks this term

found out today tt i'm not destinied
to be maths rep
or a 'leader'
teacher din choose me out of the 4 pple...
oh well
hope maybe mt is willing to let me be in 2006?
highly impossible
not tt she's tt bad
but i dun trust my own luck
:P
..

found out 10 years ago
tt many find me non-talkative
it's no wonder
i'm such a 'loner'..
pple dun talk to me directly
i wouldn't say anything
esp when i'm sian or sleepy or sad
which recently i am
these are signs of depression
i die liao
got thoughts of suicide..
:P
i'm supposed to do something with yeewen
one of these band pracs
veh sian leh
and veh kong bu
dunno wad to say..
sigh~
supposed to cheer the band pple up
at the end of the band prac
cos they veh sian and tired liao
like i'm not
going to fall asleep this instant liao loh
zzz...zzz...

got so many things to do
buy v dae prez
do i'm king of the castle
read for chinese test cos i
dun wanna revise chinese during tt cny wk
buy some nice presentable clothes
and read 4 continents by week 7
so sian

aunt bought me a pair of 3/4 pants today
quite loose
but if any smaller
my hips won't be able to squeeze in liao
veh happy
this year's waistline is
smaller than last year's by 1 inch
it's either tt
or the cutting is bigger
hope not

ah ma changed my bed sheets today
got a lot of animals one
tiger, mouse, alligator and rabbit
doing gymnastics
veh bright and cute
lots of musical notes
it's embarrassing
but i like it!
it's the only bright thing in my life now
...

so happy tt sec 3s and 4s dun have auditions
so heng loh
if got hor i sure die one
can't even play E without warming up
sigh~
at least my luck pulled me through tt

resolution:
-try to be more friendly
and not talk only when talked to
-talk more when eating
-volunteer for all kinds of things
-according to my bro
wad i shld do is to establish
ties with others to let them noe more abt me
-be more outspoken all in all

as if i can do all this..